The (Un) Caged Bird

"Let the beauty we love be what we do." – Rumi

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Think Kit Day 7: Inspiration Board

I was so excited when I read the prompt today.  After a few days of minuscule posting due to long days and a very tired brain I was relieved to finally have a day where I can share a good amount and write minimally.  I’ve taken to covering my bedroom walls with inspirational bits that I cut out of magazines as I hate the color and want to repaint them.  The walls now serve as a large canvas I can tape whatever I want to until I get around to painting them.  This is a very personal post for me as I feel like I’m really baring my soul in showing what I have posted around my house to inspire me and help keep me on the path of life that I want to lead.  I snapped some photos with my phone and apologize for the lackluster quality but at least it’s something.  I’ve had a passion for cutting bits out of magazines and storing inspiring images, quotes, paragraphs, and stories away for quite some time now.  I have composition notebooks, bound books, file folders, and three ring binders filled with pages of collages and magazine pages themselves.  I just love beauty in all shapes and forms and have always been compelled to tuck away those pieces that inspire me and catch my eye.

My current inspirations are below, enjoy.

IMG_5490whatiloveaboutme IMG_5487-notestoself IMG_5482-quotes2 IMG_5484-magicalworld IMG_5483-quotes IMG_5488-healthylife IMG_5485-persontoplace


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Think Kit Day 6: Community Involvement

I’d like to spend more time enjoying my community.  There’s a laundry list of places I’d like to visit in Indiana and I’d like to take the time to explore the sights and enjoy where I live. In addition, I’d like to attend more cultural performances and be a more active participant in the arts scene.

Short and to the point, I think that’s the only plan I have for my community involvement in 2013.  We’ll see what develops a long the way, sometimes the best things come from a plan changed and just letting the unexpected come in and letting yourself flow with the current of life.

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Think Kit Day 5: Favorite Moments of 2012

Today’s topic required us to interview three people about their favorite moments of the past year.  I decided to bend the rules a bit and take the efficient approach and post the query on my Facebook page with full disclosure to my friends and family that their responses would be included in today’s blog post.  I really enjoyed hearing everyone’s most memorable moments and hope you enjoy them too.

“Buying a condo in Florida and being able to spend the month of February on the beach.”

“When I finished writing a book.”

“My 8 year old daughter read her first chapter book.”

“My massage yesterday!”

“My week with my grand-daughter, she is amazingly observant and a breath of fresh air.”

“Spending time in Hawaii with my fun and amazing husband,  having a feisty and alert 91 year old mama, spending time with and enjoying many students, alumni and friends on a day-to-day basis. Two silly dogs, a cat, great employees and a warm cozy home to settle into every day. Blessed I am!”

What are your favorite moments from 2012?

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Think Kit Day 3: Who Would You Like to Meet?

In 2013, I’d like to meet people who move me, inspire me, and challenge me to grow and be a better person.  I’d like to connect with people who I can have fun and laugh with and go do activities together.  I’d also like opportunities to spend more time with people I already know and enjoy the company of but don’t get to see often, especially those who live on a different continent.  Hopefully, I’ll meet some people who want to hire me for an ongoing talent project where I get a recurring role or get to be a character in a motion picture.

I want to spend time with those who make my heart sing.




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Think Kit Day 2: Unplugged

My most intense experience with being unplugged is when I vacation on a Greek island where my family has a small cottage.  There isn’t any electricity, internet, phone, or television in our cottage.  When I go, I stay for weeks at a time.  I’m not completely disconnected from the outside world as I can use an office we have access to in the village for internet and to do my work.  However, on the weekends I’m completely unplugged.  I have to say that I am extremely uncomfortable with it.  I can pass the time and occupy myself, that’s not a problem.  What nags at me is the feeling of being completely disconnected and irrelevant.  Ironically, being connected through digital methods of communication also makes me feel disconnected so I’m sure that I have an issue of feeling disconnected in general.  However, without my phone or my laptop to check my email, social media, and to stay up to date on what’s happening in the world  I found myself feeling forgotten and as if the world was passing me by and I was missing out on important occurrences or opportunities.  I found myself mourning the loss of my phone and having access to the internet at my fingertips.

In my daily life my phone is rarely off.  I barely go more than two hours without checking it to make sure I haven’t missed a call or text.  I feel like if I’m not glued to my phone someone will think I’m ignoring them, my dad will think I’ve undergone a disaster, or I’ll miss an important work opportunity.   I think our access to instant communication has made the world less patient and more demanding of near instant replies.  I’m definitely guilty of assuming that people will reply promptly and that we are all glued to our phones.  I’ll admit, I’m downright afraid to leave my phone at home at the risk of being rude and inconsiderate to anyone who should happen to contact me while I am away from my phone.

I didn’t have a cellphone until I arrived at college and didn’t use a computer regularly until then either.  If I wanted to do something with my friends we planned ahead and when we were spending time together there wasn’t the third party of technology present.  Life wasn’t lived so that photos could be taken, we weren’t concerned about posting our activities on social media, and I wasn’t reading snark daily on Twitter.  I feel like life was really lived for the moment and more in the moment back then.  We really didn’t have anything to take our focus off of where we were and what we were doing unless we were in our own minds.

I’m trying to find a balance and make technology my friend and not be a slave to it.  I find that if I’m working on something it’s best to close out of everything on my laptop except what I’m working on and to tuck my phone away for a little while.  Sometimes I leave my phone in the locker while I’m at the gym and spend a few hours away from it.  I do feel a little bit of a guilty pleasure when I go for walks and leave my phone at home.  It’s just me and my thoughts and if I’m tempted to tweet them or post them on Facebook I can’t.  In the coming year I’d like to do this even more.  I don’t want to be glued to my phone or a screen and miss out on conversing with people.  I enjoy striking up conversations with complete strangers while waiting in line or waiting anywhere.  You never know who you’ll meet and what kind of interesting thing you’ll discover.   Hopefully, this coming year when I’m on vacation I won’t miss my phone and I’d like to become comfortable being without it for extended periods of time.

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The Think Kit Challenge: Day 1, My year in photos

I decided to particpate in the Think Kit project where every day for the next 31 days I’ll write about a topic that is assigned to me through Think Kit. I need another item on my to do list like I need a hole in my head but I obviously have not been writing for awhile and I love to write so I figured, let’s do it!  Time to let myself flex my writing muscles and have some fun all at the same time.  So, here we go!

My year in photos

Am I a duck, a swan, an eagle, or a hummingbird?  You know the fabled story of The Ugly Duckling?  This was a year of a lot of personal growth for me and I had to stop and look at my feathers and figure out who I was and what kind of bird that I am. 



Part of that process involved investigating the chains that were binding me and then freeing myself from them.  I had created fences and boundaries for myself with the lifestyle that I had been living and was keeping myself trapped and confined in them.  I could see the sun rising on the other side and a new dawn on the horizon, if I could only tear down the fence that kept me from freedom.  



Change was a huge theme for the year.  I couldn’t really go through all of that introspection and not change the ties that bound me.  I quit smoking, quit drinking, and quit dating boyfriends that weren’t right for me.  I’m taking steps towards choosing for myself and putting myself and my needs first.  Not the easiest thing when you have Florence Nightingale syndrome, but I’m starting to get the hang of it.  In addition, my family’s business moved offices, I opened my own massage studio, and signed with a second talent agency.  I also joined a gym and started working out regularly.  The exercising came before the gym, but as the weather cooled and the hours grew shorter I had to find somewhere other than the great outdoors to stretch my legs. 



As the year is coming to an end, I can proudly look back and say that I’ve really made some positive changes in my life. When the year started I was overwhelmed, suffering from panic and anxiety attacks, and had a very bleak outlook on my existence.  I felt like I was in the winter of my life and gradually as the weather warmed and the year progressed so did I.  Areas of myself that I thought were dead were merely dormant and I allowed them to come alive again.    From the parts of me that were asleep and lifeless new life grew and blossomed. 


And that was 2012 for me in four photos.  I’m excited about what 2013 has in store for me, I don’t know what it is but whatever it may be I laid a good foundation for it this year.  What has 2012 been like for you?